2012

Can't believe it's the beginning of another year...  I made it through the holidays -- our 5th without hubby.  I think Bear had a good Thanksgiving, birthday and Christmas.  We had a New Year's Eve party with friends that turned out to be a lot of fun. 

Some days, I'm so overwhelmed by doing it all.  I miss having a partner -- someone to share my day with, to share my bed with, to share parenting duties and responsibilities with.  I'm not lonely -- but sometimes I do feel alone.  I miss Steve so much. 

Today, I feel like a complete failure as a parent.  Bear hadn't had his ADHD meds yet -- the script ran out and I didn't want to go back to the pharmacy last night to pick it up.   I figured it's just one morning, we'll be fine - I'll grab them on the way to school.  Stupid me.  Horrible morning, horrible things said.  He deserved a better morning, and so did I.  Sigh.